hydrogen carbon and rust

soup hydrogen soup carbon 

truths scratched from the dirt 

rusting trucks 

die with years
in dry grass below

and with vultures above 

in waiting 

hungry like the old

hungry like the forgotten
waiting in line

for the dead

to come

waiting 

like we wait 

to die

the last night of me-

put yourself out there
you will learn better
one of these days when
you've been chewed up and spit out
so many times
you're not even solid aymore
and love
ha
loving the wrong people is all you seem to do
until you those wrong people
have brought out everything
that ever made you break
as a child
but you're an adult now
and when you break
you shatter
into dust

when all the people you loved so much
find their way
they will have already killed you
you will be gone
and dead
and it won't matter to you
you were the sacrafice
you were the lesson
you were not made for this world
so
close your eyes
it's time to let your body
and everything else
go

Sepia-Tone Dusk in an Angels Garden On a Day Like Today

The soft moss swimming;
It is the dying spirit.
Desiring, I hide.

Pink shore, serene breeze.
The flat, upright sparkle shines.
Lost moon, velvet spirit.

Walk, swim. With blunt leaves
Wither, decline. With sharp flames
Write, fade: fluttering.
Purple, tender, falling,
Your eyes sits. A mermaid arises,
Declining, shining, I fall

deep within and go far away...




-kyoko cole 2013-

love love love

i couldn't love you more than you love me
i would like to think
we just love
we don't ask more
we don't give less
we just are
maybe we already just are that way
but it's our world baby
that makes us think
we need titles
and onlys
and forevers
when we got all of that
and none of that
all at the same time
i guess i just like loving
someone like you
and that doesn't mean anything more or less
than what it means
don't get too lost in all i say
cause at this time i really feel that way
i don't say
those words
"i love you"
too many people take it the wrong way
or over take it
and trash it
before they can understand
that love is love
and love is beautiful
in it's true form
and it doesn't always mean one person is less
and the other more
it's all the other expectations that make love
not love but this ugly thing
that is the opposite of love
 and that is what i wish to remember
when i go about this life


 

;)

i may be a light sleeper
but 

I'm a heavy dreamer

 

i don't know what i would do without my distractions

had to leave

had to get out of the head i was in

and the only place to go

was back

to the start

back home

go home

home to me

wherever that may be

saw a friend

and throughout the day - a few more

distractions keep me alive

in a crowded room

i found you again

i saw you again

tonight

and when other things

i once knew

fade and die

all around me

your face in a room of many

fills the space

another left empty

and that

tonight

 is all

i need to get by.

it makes the others die

while i am distracted by something else

and that something else

right now

is

you.

Bukowski amd music saved my life

If you can even say that I am saved. In some ways I am... In other ways so far from saved and closer to ruin. But I guess the two go hand in hand. While one fades the other leads and so on and so forth.

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you mean more

with all the talk
i've had
a lot
and
a lot
of
men
that have passed my way....
most just names
of kinds
of love
and such
like stepping stones
all have touched me in some
kind of way
but few of those
i've known
have reached
me
like you-
deep
deeper
than i can say
and after one
or two
and more
of
broken hearts
and
broken days
just broken

i need someone like you.
after the cry
and the howl
and the taste of dirt
and the i don't knows
the worst of hurt
i want someone like you.
no name other than love
no place other than my heart
you are more to me than the lines between us
that we put around us
that we allow to be us
you are someone more
someone special
in my life
in my heart
in more
than just talk
that means more than
the talk
that life talks up
you mean more
and
fill me more
than
the way
the talk
and the fake
means
and fills up
in life 
and in my days
_______________________________________

have some soul would ya please?

please people-
have some fucking soul man
don't be afraid to go out there and get what you fucking want
take what you love
love what loves you
but don't get lost in the things in life
that seem too good
too good
too true
too good to be true?
too anything
things change
people change
and it never is what it was
or what you want
or what you think you need
fuck searching for the "perfect one"
who doesn't exist as perfectly as you'd like
shit... stop searching for the one period
it's all possible
but don't expect it to save you
or fix you
or make you happy
don't expect anyone to be able to control that
you find good people . who are what they are
human
but honest, trustworthy and loyal
and you stop thinking about
all the things you don't have
and stop thinking so much about
something that was made up in your own head- many years ago - that gave you some kind of hope- that gave you some kind of way to deal
even if it was unhealthy
stop looking
stop worrying
stop pretending
stop wasting
the time is now
you are there
i am here
and it doesn't last forever

yuck
FUCK- THE ONE