love love love

i couldn't love you more than you love me
i would like to think
we just love
we don't ask more
we don't give less
we just are
maybe we already just are that way
but it's our world baby
that makes us think
we need titles
and onlys
and forevers
when we got all of that
and none of that
all at the same time
i guess i just like loving
someone like you
and that doesn't mean anything more or less
than what it means
don't get too lost in all i say
cause at this time i really feel that way
i don't say
those words
"i love you"
too many people take it the wrong way
or over take it
and trash it
before they can understand
that love is love
and love is beautiful
in it's true form
and it doesn't always mean one person is less
and the other more
it's all the other expectations that make love
not love but this ugly thing
that is the opposite of love
 and that is what i wish to remember
when i go about this life


 

i can't talk to you or see you anymore.

why do you want it to be this way?
do you like it where it is?
did you ever want more?
when i see you let it be
less than
what i once knew it could be
it hurst
it makes me sick
it makes me want to forget

you don't care what you're doing to it right now
cause it's still here
i'm still here
trying
even though you would like me to not say anything
and just allow us to die slowly
sigh
the only way for you to ever know what you do to the people who love you
is for you to lose
what you thought would always be there
for you no matter how many times
you wouldn't

the hardest thing for me to do
is to say goodbye to someone i truly loved
i never felt as strongly as i do
right now about having to
walk away
and leave you behind
 you won't appreciate me if i stay
you don't even know
what you're doing
to this
to us
right now
you don't even realize how special our love was
how much i loved you
you just kicked it down to it's place once it was down
you never helped it get back up
you don't see that right now
but you will
and for a little while at least it will haunt you
cause that's what the ghost of things do

i never asked you for something i knew you couldn't do
what i was asking for was just something you wouldn't do

i never saw that you really wanted me around enough for me to stay
you showed me all the things to make me go away

 

"I'm not looking for anything serious"

Well thanks. If you think I was closes off before now I'm forced to be even more. I had limits and too much thought into things that should or could be just natural. People are weird. We want what we can't have and when we can have it we treat it like shit. The funny part is later down the road when we figure out how great it was and when we've finally grow up a bit it quite often is too late. Don't put titles on things. Don't limit yourself whether it be in a relationship or not ready for a relationship. We are where we are and things are as they are and you know what you sign up for. Don't stop something from being in its natural state. Period. If it's not for you then leave it alone. Or let it be.
The minute you put limits on something or someone you end up limiting yourself.
With that said
I let it go.

being alone never felt so alone

box # 2 will have to do - the serial ways of my ex

the people you know and the people who know you
most have reason to hate you
the few who forgive what you do
and the one or two who don't care
the three boxes you put people in

note to his current fuck (of the week? of the day? ha):
no matter how special he seems
no matter how special he seems to make you feel
you are not special and sooner or later you will end up in one of the three boxed listed above. whether you like it or not- whether you want it or not. it is not up to you. you have no say in this. you will be put inside one of his boxes just like all the rest. be prepared for it. get use to it now. or don't believe me and find out for yourself when it's already too late.