Saturday, February 26, 2011

bang bang - I shot you the fuck down z

and down is where you belong
all i can say
is that when it mattered
you were drunk
and not there with me
but drunk
and somewhere else
only showing up to get your dick wet
you showed me
where you need to be in my life
you showed me how to not give a fuck
like you don't give a fuck
you showed me what to do
 with you
bang bang
i shoot you
to the ground
where you belong
kick rocks asshole
ps.  you ruined something really great

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Bukowski amd music saved my life

If you can even say that I am saved. In some ways I am... In other ways so far from saved and closer to ruin. But I guess the two go hand in hand. While one fades the other leads and so on and so forth.
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Friday, February 11, 2011

fill in the blank friday.

fill in the blank friday.: "

You can all rest easy your Fill in the Blank Fridays are once again complete with links thanks to Simply Linked. Thanks Simply Linked! How many times can I use the word link in a sentence? Link, link, link. OK. Moving on.....

Today's blanks are brought to you by Miss Shaunie over at Unknown-Boutique. Thanks for coming up with these great blanks Shaunie! The theme is "guilty pleasures". If you want to play along, just fill in the blanks over at your blog and then link up using the link at the end of the post. Link, link, link. I did it again!!

1. The TV show/website that I watch/read that I would be embarrassed to tell anyone about is - Jersey Shore- and TMZ - i don't know why it's so fucking addicting but it is

2. An item of clothing that is worn and torn but that I love far to much to throw away is 
my usc sweatshirt...  got it used - and reused and abused it some more. it's ripped torn and got holes not to mention covered in paint stains and food stains etc. every time i wear it people tell me i look like one of the bums on 4th st in downtown la. ;) i just can't throw it out though... it's sooooooo comfortable

3. My grocery store impulse buy is cottage cheese and pineapple slices....
lots of it. that and roasted salted almonds... yummy

4. Something I do at work to pass time that I wouldn't want my co-workers to know about is
i have no co-workers and if i did... i could give a shit what they thought about my pass time activities

5. One thing in my life that I could give up, but never will is  collecting and accumulating more shit--- i have more than enough things i collect but i love it...
a collector is a nice way to describe a hoarder- it's basically the same thing 

6. A little indulgence that I have is  peanut m&ms and garlic shrimp chips almost every day. sigh... okay well every other day at least

7. The junk drawer/area in my house is  my house. the junk drawer/area is pretty much my whole house... i just hide/orgainzed my "junk" better so it's not noticeable in a bad way.

What guilty pleasures are you indulging in this weekend?

art and boys. oh yeah


The 5 Weirdest Ways Music Can Mess With the Human Brain

The 5 Weirdest Ways Music Can Mess With the Human Brain: "


Friday, February 04, 2011

i use to know you - where did you go?

i lost myself
inside the four corners
of my tiny bathroom
locked the door
fell to the floor
and cried
over you.

i sat there
on the floor
between the toilet
and the tub
and cried my fucking eyes out
like never before
and quite possibly never again
our love is gone
and the realization of that
for some reason
at that moment
hit me
in the sickest
most violent
i don't think i've ever
heard a voice
so loud and so clear
went straight to my heart and straight to my head
at the exact same time
and i knew
what i knew was more honest
than words
even more honest than my own self
and i knew
that it was over
i knew that our love
was not
and would never be enough
to make us fall in love again

i felt like a child
alone and afraid
inside myself
inside my bathroom
locked away from whatever fear i felt was out there
whatever i felt
i was
the truth was out
my love
was gone
the love
i was so in love with
was gone

We all need a safe place to hide

Cats seem to find the best places to escape... I think was a cat in a previous life...

Ha... Not to you anyways....

the strangest of the strange...

the strangest of the strange...
...i am

star loves the beatles too

star loves the beatles too
yeah i love the beatles too