Saturday, January 14, 2012

"somebody i used to know" by elliott smith

I had tender feelings that you made hard
But it's your heart, not mine, that's scarred
So when I go home I'll be happy to go
You're just somebody that I used to know
You don't need my help anymore
It's all now to you, there ain't no before
Now that you're big enough to run your own show
You're just somebody that I used to know
I watched you deal in a dying day
And throw the living past away
So you can be sure that you're in control
You're just somebody that I used to know
I know you don't think you did me wrong
And I can't stay this way for long
Keeping ahold of what you just let go
You're just somebody that I used to know

PLEASE JUST GO AWAY

he's a 33 year old child
that i don't want 
i don't need
tonight 
made me see everything he really is 
and it's everything i really hate.
tonight 
i rid myself of him 
once and for good-
he's a fool 
and you can't teach a fool
something he doesn't want to learn
he will behave like a fool
he will drink and be a drunk
until the day 
he wants to change himself for himself
until then
he will continue to be 
the way he's always been 

but i won't take your calls tomorrow
i won't answer 
i won't reply
i won't respond to your bullshit anymore
i won't acknowledge your existence after this
giving you the time of day
letting you back in my life
ONLY MAKES YOU DO IT MORE
like a spoiled child
spoiled rotten
rot
away 
alone.
i'm sick of you and your bullshit
i'm sick of your stammer
i'm sick of your drunk drool spit spatting all over my life
grow up
be accountable for your actions
don't bother me after you fucked up
i'm not with you anymore 
your actions have consequences 
DEAL
WITH 
IT!

I SHAKE YOU OFF 
i spit you out
i rid myself 
....of
you
once and for all

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

today...

don't feel like being much of a person
don't feel like getting out of bed
or answering my phone
...
is there somebody 
out there
????
that 
will understand me 
... finally???
rejected 
neglected
...
sometimes
i just want to 
go away

Monday, January 02, 2012

new years resolution -

resolution
solution
evolution
evolve
-ve
evol
turned around is
love
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i would like this year to be about finding my way
without going about it the hard way first
maybe that's where i've been wrong
maybe i've been going about it the easy way
the way that's easiest to me
which is to fight
and to yell
and to scream
and to knock myself and everyone around me down
maybe the hard way is to stay calm
and not react
to not let everything or everyone get the better of me

just remember
breathe
and refrain
and love

the strangest of the strange...

the strangest of the strange...
...i am

star loves the beatles too

star loves the beatles too
yeah i love the beatles too
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