love love love

i couldn't love you more than you love me
i would like to think
we just love
we don't ask more
we don't give less
we just are
maybe we already just are that way
but it's our world baby
that makes us think
we need titles
and onlys
and forevers
when we got all of that
and none of that
all at the same time
i guess i just like loving
someone like you
and that doesn't mean anything more or less
than what it means
don't get too lost in all i say
cause at this time i really feel that way
i don't say
those words
"i love you"
too many people take it the wrong way
or over take it
and trash it
before they can understand
that love is love
and love is beautiful
in it's true form
and it doesn't always mean one person is less
and the other more
it's all the other expectations that make love
not love but this ugly thing
that is the opposite of love
 and that is what i wish to remember
when i go about this life


 

"I'm not looking for anything serious"

Well thanks. If you think I was closes off before now I'm forced to be even more. I had limits and too much thought into things that should or could be just natural. People are weird. We want what we can't have and when we can have it we treat it like shit. The funny part is later down the road when we figure out how great it was and when we've finally grow up a bit it quite often is too late. Don't put titles on things. Don't limit yourself whether it be in a relationship or not ready for a relationship. We are where we are and things are as they are and you know what you sign up for. Don't stop something from being in its natural state. Period. If it's not for you then leave it alone. Or let it be.
The minute you put limits on something or someone you end up limiting yourself.
With that said
I let it go.

he's hot but...

he's hot but...he reminds me of my father
he's hot but...he's a drummer -
he's hot but...he's got mommy issues
he's hot but...he's just not that into you
he's hot but...he's a douche bag
he's hot but...he's way too into his perv mustache 
he's hot but...he's a self proclaimed hipster
he's hot but...he's like a 5 year old but less fun
he's hot but...he's troubled
he's hot but...he's too cool for school -too cool for girls too cool for talking even
he's hot but...he's got yellow fever like every other white guy not from the city of Angels (and i mean in los angeles not just outside of, not the oc, not the ie. not the valley)
he's hot but...his name tells you more about him than he actually does...      .....Dick, Leach, slaugher, Saiko (Psycho) chase,  ... initials FML WTF LOL
he's hot but...his friends are not
he's hot but.... he's got tacky business cards
he's hot but ....he's still a WEAKend coke head
he's hot but ....he's no fun unless he's on his way to being drunk 

you mean more

with all the talk
i've had
a lot
and
a lot
of
men
that have passed my way....
most just names
of kinds
of love
and such
like stepping stones
all have touched me in some
kind of way
but few of those
i've known
have reached
me
like you-
deep
deeper
than i can say
and after one
or two
and more
of
broken hearts
and
broken days
just broken

i need someone like you.
after the cry
and the howl
and the taste of dirt
and the i don't knows
the worst of hurt
i want someone like you.
no name other than love
no place other than my heart
you are more to me than the lines between us
that we put around us
that we allow to be us
you are someone more
someone special
in my life
in my heart
in more
than just talk
that means more than
the talk
that life talks up
you mean more
and
fill me more
than
the way
the talk
and the fake
means
and fills up
in life 
and in my days
_______________________________________

don't let the shit people bring you down

deal with the shit heads
head on you're a part of what makes the scene
and whether you like it or not
you are a part of the party
you are a part of the group
don't think you have some kind of control over those people
cause in the waiting room
in the waiting line
they creep in
they suck you dry
they are leeches
and it shakes your head
rattles your walls
-
some people are stronger
most people just look strong in the line of fire
what's funny is that those people aren't really strong
they just don't care
they don't think about what is good and what is toxic
they like the party
they like the attention
and for a time being they feed off it.
they eat that shit up
- but