yeah my hands are shakin'

make a bunch of excuses
up
and pour out
of your insides
inside out
you are
i am
invisible
to your heart right now
want to make me
make you disappear forever?
well you're doing a fine job so far
on your own
make up some lies
cover up some tracks
in your head it makes up for
all that lacks
but the cloud your head is stuck in
is too thick
you can hardly see
the real world through
you don't know how it feels to be handed
a bunch of bullshit on a platter
time and time again
cause my feelings to you don't matter
you show it
and show it
time and time
and time
again
soon you won't be somebody to me
soon you won't even be somebody that once was
you're making me make you into nothing
you're making me erase you from my brain
for good
the only way for me
to stay sane
to stay somewhat sane
after the fucked up shit you put me through
after all the bullshit that makes up you
clean up
wash away
take out the trash
disinfect
the parts you  infected
affected
effected 
  i got no more room
to house
a life sucker
little fucker like you

i piss you goodbye
and watch as i flush you down
where you belong

 

he's hot but...

he's hot but...he reminds me of my father
he's hot but...he's a drummer -
he's hot but...he's got mommy issues
he's hot but...he's just not that into you
he's hot but...he's a douche bag
he's hot but...he's way too into his perv mustache 
he's hot but...he's a self proclaimed hipster
he's hot but...he's like a 5 year old but less fun
he's hot but...he's troubled
he's hot but...he's too cool for school -too cool for girls too cool for talking even
he's hot but...he's got yellow fever like every other white guy not from the city of Angels (and i mean in los angeles not just outside of, not the oc, not the ie. not the valley)
he's hot but...his name tells you more about him than he actually does...      .....Dick, Leach, slaugher, Saiko (Psycho) chase,  ... initials FML WTF LOL
he's hot but...his friends are not
he's hot but.... he's got tacky business cards
he's hot but ....he's still a WEAKend coke head
he's hot but ....he's no fun unless he's on his way to being drunk 

don't let the shit people bring you down

deal with the shit heads
head on you're a part of what makes the scene
and whether you like it or not
you are a part of the party
you are a part of the group
don't think you have some kind of control over those people
cause in the waiting room
in the waiting line
they creep in
they suck you dry
they are leeches
and it shakes your head
rattles your walls
-
some people are stronger
most people just look strong in the line of fire
what's funny is that those people aren't really strong
they just don't care
they don't think about what is good and what is toxic
they like the party
they like the attention
and for a time being they feed off it.
they eat that shit up
- but