wish you were beer -

you stammer on
and makes an excuse
that runs into a run on
into
another excuse
turned excuses
piled on
and on top of
more excuses
"excuse me for
being the asshole i am" you recite
"excuse me for not giving a shit
cause i felt sick or woke up grumpy or got drunk blah blah ya di da di dahhhh"
---- his yack is always the same stupid back
and i don't really care
i don't give a shit anymore 
drop it
leave it
kick it
trash it
dump it
and walk on by
you're done
i'm gone
it's dead
moving on 
go with
someone
better
instead
of
you
you don't even see the stupid you do

you wasted all the tries
you spit out all your lies

and you have no chance to make it back
or get it back again
...
ever again

you're too much
that i don't ever want to deal with

ever again

 

yeah my hands are shakin'

make a bunch of excuses
up
and pour out
of your insides
inside out
you are
i am
invisible
to your heart right now
want to make me
make you disappear forever?
well you're doing a fine job so far
on your own
make up some lies
cover up some tracks
in your head it makes up for
all that lacks
but the cloud your head is stuck in
is too thick
you can hardly see
the real world through
you don't know how it feels to be handed
a bunch of bullshit on a platter
time and time again
cause my feelings to you don't matter
you show it
and show it
time and time
and time
again
soon you won't be somebody to me
soon you won't even be somebody that once was
you're making me make you into nothing
you're making me erase you from my brain
for good
the only way for me
to stay sane
to stay somewhat sane
after the fucked up shit you put me through
after all the bullshit that makes up you
clean up
wash away
take out the trash
disinfect
the parts you  infected
affected
effected 
  i got no more room
to house
a life sucker
little fucker like you

i piss you goodbye
and watch as i flush you down
where you belong

 

you want me?

it's simple

you want me

come and get me

you know what to do

and where i am 

you know where to find me

come on
take me.

if you really want me with you
come and get me

but...

if you don't 

then you
must
just

let 
me 
be

somebody that i used to know- z

i just heard that song tonight for the first time
i guess i'm not hip
and i guess it was meant for me to hear right now
while this is going on with you
i sat in the car
and listened to it 5 more times
and cried my eyes out
cause that's how i feel about you
and it's a hopeless feeling
now
with how you screwed me over
when i told you my feelings
you made me feel the way
i never wanted to feel again
like you were so far away from me
and you didn't even care
and that is a hard feeling to swallow
right now
it stays a lump in my throat
and the tears aren't stopping any time soon
cause it hurts so bad
that you would do
what you wouldn't want someone to do to you
and i feel the distance
and i feel it grow
sitting here letting it all come out
i'm as honest as anyone can be
more honest then you were with me
cause to think of you -
as somebody that i used to know
i won't turn around
i won't wait for you again