the last night of me-

put yourself out there
you will learn better
one of these days when
you've been chewed up and spit out
so many times
you're not even solid aymore
and love
ha
loving the wrong people is all you seem to do
until you those wrong people
have brought out everything
that ever made you break
as a child
but you're an adult now
and when you break
you shatter
into dust

when all the people you loved so much
find their way
they will have already killed you
you will be gone
and dead
and it won't matter to you
you were the sacrafice
you were the lesson
you were not made for this world
so
close your eyes
it's time to let your body
and everything else
go

wish you were beer -

you stammer on
and makes an excuse
that runs into a run on
into
another excuse
turned excuses
piled on
and on top of
more excuses
"excuse me for
being the asshole i am" you recite
"excuse me for not giving a shit
cause i felt sick or woke up grumpy or got drunk blah blah ya di da di dahhhh"
---- his yack is always the same stupid back
and i don't really care
i don't give a shit anymore 
drop it
leave it
kick it
trash it
dump it
and walk on by
you're done
i'm gone
it's dead
moving on 
go with
someone
better
instead
of
you
you don't even see the stupid you do

you wasted all the tries
you spit out all your lies

and you have no chance to make it back
or get it back again
...
ever again

you're too much
that i don't ever want to deal with

ever again

 

yeah my hands are shakin'

make a bunch of excuses
up
and pour out
of your insides
inside out
you are
i am
invisible
to your heart right now
want to make me
make you disappear forever?
well you're doing a fine job so far
on your own
make up some lies
cover up some tracks
in your head it makes up for
all that lacks
but the cloud your head is stuck in
is too thick
you can hardly see
the real world through
you don't know how it feels to be handed
a bunch of bullshit on a platter
time and time again
cause my feelings to you don't matter
you show it
and show it
time and time
and time
again
soon you won't be somebody to me
soon you won't even be somebody that once was
you're making me make you into nothing
you're making me erase you from my brain
for good
the only way for me
to stay sane
to stay somewhat sane
after the fucked up shit you put me through
after all the bullshit that makes up you
clean up
wash away
take out the trash
disinfect
the parts you  infected
affected
effected 
  i got no more room
to house
a life sucker
little fucker like you

i piss you goodbye
and watch as i flush you down
where you belong

 

he's hot but...

he's hot but...he reminds me of my father
he's hot but...he's a drummer -
he's hot but...he's got mommy issues
he's hot but...he's just not that into you
he's hot but...he's a douche bag
he's hot but...he's way too into his perv mustache 
he's hot but...he's a self proclaimed hipster
he's hot but...he's like a 5 year old but less fun
he's hot but...he's troubled
he's hot but...he's too cool for school -too cool for girls too cool for talking even
he's hot but...he's got yellow fever like every other white guy not from the city of Angels (and i mean in los angeles not just outside of, not the oc, not the ie. not the valley)
he's hot but...his name tells you more about him than he actually does...      .....Dick, Leach, slaugher, Saiko (Psycho) chase,  ... initials FML WTF LOL
he's hot but...his friends are not
he's hot but.... he's got tacky business cards
he's hot but ....he's still a WEAKend coke head
he's hot but ....he's no fun unless he's on his way to being drunk 

you nag me like my mother

your text messages are lame
don't even pretend like we're okay
like you even care
cause i could care less
when it comes to the things you want to bitch about
i got no reason
to want to keep you around
or to want to talk to you
cause you don't talk you nag
and spit a mouth full of shit
that makes my ears gag
i avoid
and turn to another
i avoid
you nag
like my
mother
 and who the fuck would want that?

whore lotta whores

you need shit
to compliment the shit
that is you
you and your whores
whore lotta whores
each of them think that they're yours
lip service
gets you far
those dumb bitches 
with daddy issues
and those other hungry heads
will swallow anything you feed 'em
just to get fed
eager to swallow
eager to take
whatever comes
comes out in stale spit
a mouth and a life
full of shit
and that's as good as it gets for you
                                                         that is as good as your life will ever get.