whore it up
don't give a fuck
until you find something worth giving a fuck about
...
sigh...
wait ...
imagine just came on the radio
and it makes me want to cry
cause all i wanted was to be a part of something
all i wanted was to be important enough to you
but it's not you
it's not even love
if it's like this
it's not you
it's him and him and especially
the big man who started it all
who started me anyways
he's the one i'm wanting to be important enough to
he's the one who started this feeling inside me
but i'm the one who will end it
cause you...
you were just a painful reminder
of what i lack
and what i will always yearn for
even with the best therapy and years of treatment
ha!
you were just a filler to keep me feeling the empty and the rejection
cause i feed off the hurt and the pain that never stops
i feed off the hurt and the pain that hasn't killed me.... yet
cause you know it is bound to get to anyone
the missing and the empty is bound to take over
the shit is gonna get to me someday
i can only take what i can take for so long
-- and what that means to me is not some morbid cry for help
i won't kill myself now
i'm too old for that shit
but when the shit hits the fan
and too much is too much
a part of me won't be alive
like before
and that
is okay
it has to be okay
i make it okay by escaping in many
i won't cry today
now i am okay
cause you can't fuck with
something and expect it to not fuck back
so for now
i will deal with my hurt and pain and blah blah blah
by fucking everything in site
and that means sexx
cause at least that's something i can do
right
and do without giving a fuck
if it ain't you
whore it up baby
cause it's the only way
it's the only way
until you find a better way
