he's hot but...

he's hot but...he reminds me of my father
he's hot but...he's a drummer -
he's hot but...he's got mommy issues
he's hot but...he's just not that into you
he's hot but...he's a douche bag
he's hot but...he's way too into his perv mustache 
he's hot but...he's a self proclaimed hipster
he's hot but...he's like a 5 year old but less fun
he's hot but...he's troubled
he's hot but...he's too cool for school -too cool for girls too cool for talking even
he's hot but...he's got yellow fever like every other white guy not from the city of Angels (and i mean in los angeles not just outside of, not the oc, not the ie. not the valley)
he's hot but...his name tells you more about him than he actually does...      .....Dick, Leach, slaugher, Saiko (Psycho) chase,  ... initials FML WTF LOL
he's hot but...his friends are not
he's hot but.... he's got tacky business cards
he's hot but ....he's still a WEAKend coke head
he's hot but ....he's no fun unless he's on his way to being drunk 

the sun smells too loud

fade into the background

fade into moon and sun

come on die young

and sway 

back and forth 

back and forth

lie head pointed north
you pick me up
and

take me somewhere nice
pick up your device

 slide to unlock
and

dial: revenge 

or just flat line out 

of time
out 

of welcome

out of place

running all over out of face

boring machines disturbs sleep

fade into the darkness fall in deep

e-meh

what were you looking for
for an e-fuck?
e-suck?
e-moti- CON
tron?
virtual virtuoso
so so
e-show
no
no go
back to la la land
while you
use your hand
and pretend it's my
puuurrrrrrfect
wet
slit
you slide
your dick into
in your mind
through email
e-sex
is more like an
e- FAIL
nothing is better than the real thing
face to face
flesh on flesh
my cum
and your cum
together mesh
in real life
and in real time
and in re-a-li-ty
no electronic
hidden bullshit
behind the screens
cum on my face
not my facebook

somebody that i used to know- z

i just heard that song tonight for the first time
i guess i'm not hip
and i guess it was meant for me to hear right now
while this is going on with you
i sat in the car
and listened to it 5 more times
and cried my eyes out
cause that's how i feel about you
and it's a hopeless feeling
now
with how you screwed me over
when i told you my feelings
you made me feel the way
i never wanted to feel again
like you were so far away from me
and you didn't even care
and that is a hard feeling to swallow
right now
it stays a lump in my throat
and the tears aren't stopping any time soon
cause it hurts so bad
that you would do
what you wouldn't want someone to do to you
and i feel the distance
and i feel it grow
sitting here letting it all come out
i'm as honest as anyone can be
more honest then you were with me
cause to think of you -
as somebody that i used to know
i won't turn around
i won't wait for you again

steamroller asshole blues

steamroller
controller
can't seem to win
in and out
You scream about
throw my shit
straight at my head
your feelings like to shout
can't be better
can't be myself
can't be myself
and i can't talk
when you come in
pressing in on
and down on me
you already
tell me
how i feel
you tell me how i feel
tell me how do i feel?
you just tell me HOW I FEEL
and never seem to stop
keep on keeping on
with all your
talk talk talk
VERBAL WALK
all over
walk
you take
all over me
i watch what you don't see
and feel what you don't feel
the weight of your crush
and you don't know how i feel
You'll never know how I feel

Piss on u

fuxk

fcfashfkjwv s;uvhawjkfhvalrwhuwp'fioc

i wanna fuck the world 

and time is on my side

ha

you piss on everything 

that you don't like about me

and piss me off 

the thought of you and me 

just does't work in my mind

and i don't mind 

cause my mind doesn't work anymore 

either

something i wrote a long time ago

we meet secretly
you like it better that way
i don't like it much now
but that's the only way i get  to see you
that's the only time
i'm allowed to have
with you
and i know you go home to her
every night you go home to her
i know you share your life with her
but even still
for so very long
i always felt
like your heart belonged to me
cause i left my heart with you
but that's a foolish thought
and i'm a fool for believing that for so long
i wrapped myself around the maybes
and strapped myself to the someday
we will be together again
we were meant to be together again

i lose myself in the few moments
i have with you
and the sweetness of your tongue
and the taste of your sweat
and your smell is something hard to forget
but i'm a fool for believing all of that

after yesterday
and something you said
got into my head
and knocked me back to where i should be
just your friend
i love you
but i'm not in love with you anymore
cause she's the one
you have time for
and if even just for right now
she's the one for now
while you have time
but i'm not in love with your shadow
i'm not in love with your ghost
i've been chasing the fade as we turn to grey
i'm not in love with you in love with somebody else

yesterday
i got the truth

i love you always
but she is the one
(for(ever) now
if she makes you happy
then i'm happy
and i'm happy i'm not in love
with you anymore