something i wrote a long time ago

we meet secretly
you like it better that way
i don't like it much now
but that's the only way i get  to see you
that's the only time
i'm allowed to have
with you
and i know you go home to her
every night you go home to her
i know you share your life with her
but even still
for so very long
i always felt
like your heart belonged to me
cause i left my heart with you
but that's a foolish thought
and i'm a fool for believing that for so long
i wrapped myself around the maybes
and strapped myself to the someday
we will be together again
we were meant to be together again

i lose myself in the few moments
i have with you
and the sweetness of your tongue
and the taste of your sweat
and your smell is something hard to forget
but i'm a fool for believing all of that

after yesterday
and something you said
got into my head
and knocked me back to where i should be
just your friend
i love you
but i'm not in love with you anymore
cause she's the one
you have time for
and if even just for right now
she's the one for now
while you have time
but i'm not in love with your shadow
i'm not in love with your ghost
i've been chasing the fade as we turn to grey
i'm not in love with you in love with somebody else

yesterday
i got the truth

i love you always
but she is the one
(for(ever) now
if she makes you happy
then i'm happy
and i'm happy i'm not in love
with you anymore