Thursday, September 20, 2012

pleasant street - tim buckley

i fucking love this song... it's eerie how much his son sounded like him and looked like him
they only met each other once

PLEASANT STREET - by Tim Buckley

Lyrics | Tim Buckley lyrics - Pleasant Street lyrics

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

what can i do

in the wake of the night
in the shadows of your step
i await the devil of a man
who returns again and again
i await the madness of a woman
who screams
a scream that still lingers
inside my head and  inside  my heart
the things we do to ourselves - to keep the punishment alive
the things we think and feel
and believe about our own selves
are just the thoughts and feelings
that others made and pushed upon us

we were taught to believe the lies we now believe are true
fear lies
truth loves
but we forget what is true
we once knew
deep down
now replaced
with doubt
and anger
and insecurities
and unhappiness
all comes from fear 
and
we didn't know good
never treated with care
we were surrounded by fear and sadness
we were rejected by the rejected
we were the neglected
and abandoned
we were the ones left behind

Friday, September 07, 2012

earth shakes

that earthquake
tonight
was telling me
 and everyone  else
that all that shit
we hold onto and hang on to
LET IT GO
all that shit and all those people
IT don't mean a thing
if it's not in the here and now
it doesn't mean a god damn thing
sometimes mother nature has to shake things up
in order to wake things up

i'm alone
but not for long
i think i've been alone long enough

this is the end of the beginning
and the beginning of the end
and so on and so forth

i'm not waiting around for anything
or anyone anymore






Wednesday, September 05, 2012

Swan song

I step outside
To take it all in
This is the only good that i know right now
Air
And sky
And the night
And the moon and stars
I will leave with the good memories I have
Even though they are far from my life now
You cared about finding me guilty
More than you cared about me
I'm just the girl
You didn't really love
You lusted after
And that's all you have left me with
The emptiness of your absence and the worthlessness from your words.
If you knew how bad I felt you might have done things a little different
But you didn't
And this isn't about you anymore
This is about the beauty of
goodbye
The grace in the last moment
I am here.
Sometimes you get so alone that it just makes sense
Thank you Bukowski
I will miss you the most

being alone never felt so alone



























Tuesday, September 04, 2012

I need a fix cause I'm going down

Bust my balls
Take a swing
Pour that rain down some on rain some more
Kick me when I'm down
And then kick me again
Salt the wound
And when I think I've had enough
Do it all over again
Then Do it some more
I can deal with a lot but
So help me "god"
I can't deal with it tonight
Or right now
Muscle relaxers to calm the nerves
Muscles relaxers for the soul
Take me out of this
Or I need to take myself out
Go ahead and look down on me
Cause its easier than looking down on yourself
But We all are in the same kind of boat
We all deal in the unhealthy ways we do
I am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together.
goo goo goo joob
Leave it alone
Kyoko
Leave it all alone
For good 

the strangest of the strange...

the strangest of the strange...
...i am

star loves the beatles too

star loves the beatles too
yeah i love the beatles too