what can i do

in the wake of the night
in the shadows of your step
i await the devil of a man
who returns again and again
i await the madness of a woman
who screams
a scream that still lingers
inside my head and  inside  my heart
the things we do to ourselves - to keep the punishment alive
the things we think and feel
and believe about our own selves
are just the thoughts and feelings
that others made and pushed upon us

we were taught to believe the lies we now believe are true
fear lies
truth loves
but we forget what is true
we once knew
deep down
now replaced
with doubt
and anger
and insecurities
and unhappiness
all comes from fear 
and
we didn't know good
never treated with care
we were surrounded by fear and sadness
we were rejected by the rejected
we were the neglected
and abandoned
we were the ones left behind