Secret lover

You are
new
And fun
And your kiss
Pours
A taste
Of
sex and sweet
Like candy
And rum
And wild desire
Your touch
And tongue
Sets my soul on fire

But you are someone who is close to
My last love
The one who broke my heart
The one who spent many years
Keeping us apart
If he only knew
The truth about Me and you
And who
You are
And what you mean to me now

too late for goodbyes

you dropped me back off at my house right now
5:30 am
time of death
or time of birth?
we spent our last night together
our last few hours
ha it's funny how sad that sounds now
when i look at it in writing 
it makes me even more sad to see it there
and know that it's really over

my love for you isn't gone yet
that will take far more time
than i'd like to admit
and much more time
than i would like for it to
but we all mourn the way we do

i loved you so much more
than i wanted to
maybe more than you
looking up at my wall
to the record clock you made
for me
and the song
"too late for goodbyes"
it hits my heart
makes my insides hurt and yearn and love
and i burn for you
the way we were
back then
i wish we could live that time again
but
i don't think you were ever ready for me
i waited for you but you never came around
 but if i could go back
to the beginning
when we first fell in love
when we first began
and do it all over again
i would
in a hearbeat
i would

but now
it's not too late
for goodbyes

goodbye love...


 

It's the end of the world as we know it

Unclenched fist
Cut The strings
Of (k)nots
Between
You kept a hold on
To keep me on a string

To dangle
stringing along
You were wrong
Tied up and tangled
Hung up and strangled
I was put down
Pulled in
pushed away
All
around
And left somewhere
In the mess
That is you
Sit
Stand
Lay
Stay
Come
go
No
No sorry
No sorries 
You might
Be sorry

But how do you really know
what it is to be sorry
Now
When you were never sorry then

I
Break it off 

And
Bleed it out 

And
Let it go

 don't ever look back
All that's back there
Is  old
And nowhere
A waste of time 

I'd rather waste 

Somewhere else


I dropped you 
Off some deserted road

Some Far away place
Nowhere near my heart
Nowhere to be found.
At the end of the road

At the end of my rope 

Without a sound

;)

And I feel fine

These are the days

I wish I didn't exist.
Why?
Haven't you done enough already?

So if this is the end

Why does it feel so much like the end? The world.
Yes the world as we know it

something stupid about something stupid

i got nothing
everything i got that means a lot
gets shot
down and back at me....
you don't even see
do you want to feel how it feels?
i don't even think
that you think
that you even hurt me
 but you hurt me
----
it's as simple as this
if you wanted my love
and you wanted me
you would show me love
you would have me
if you wanted it to be right
if you really wanted it to be good

then why would you fight
me
and fight my love
you wouldn't.

you can make excuses but the biggest excuse
is you 

if you loved me
i would see it
i would feel it
i would have it
and i wouldn't feel bad
like i do
whenever i am around you

i really wanted it
before it was
what it is
now

i know you're not there
you
have always
not be there

some
things
you
can
never
ever
repair
once broken


.... and that

i am.....
 

;)

i may be a light sleeper
but 

I'm a heavy dreamer