It just hits you

One day you wake up
And it's all very clear
So you take of loose ends
You take a shower. Look your best. Clean the house
Feed the cats
Listen to the Beatles and when all of those things are taken care of
And you made it so there's no extra mess you kill yourself
You wake up one morning and you think "today's a good day to die"
And it's as simple as that
Everything every thought after that just becomes natural and easy

you want me?

it's simple

you want me

come and get me

you know what to do

and where i am 

you know where to find me

come on
take me.

if you really want me with you
come and get me

but...

if you don't 

then you
must
just

let 
me 
be

Get

Stuck
Get caught
Got tied
Up and down
To
And with
In
Side
Stick like glue
Glide and slide the
Slick and smooth
That hides Right all over
And all under all of you
What a mess
Of junk
U sink
In sunk

he's hot but...

he's hot but...he reminds me of my father
he's hot but...he's a drummer -
he's hot but...he's got mommy issues
he's hot but...he's just not that into you
he's hot but...he's a douche bag
he's hot but...he's way too into his perv mustache 
he's hot but...he's a self proclaimed hipster
he's hot but...he's like a 5 year old but less fun
he's hot but...he's troubled
he's hot but...he's too cool for school -too cool for girls too cool for talking even
he's hot but...he's got yellow fever like every other white guy not from the city of Angels (and i mean in los angeles not just outside of, not the oc, not the ie. not the valley)
he's hot but...his name tells you more about him than he actually does...      .....Dick, Leach, slaugher, Saiko (Psycho) chase,  ... initials FML WTF LOL
he's hot but...his friends are not
he's hot but.... he's got tacky business cards
he's hot but ....he's still a WEAKend coke head
he's hot but ....he's no fun unless he's on his way to being drunk 

the sun smells too loud

fade into the background

fade into moon and sun

come on die young

and sway 

back and forth 

back and forth

lie head pointed north
you pick me up
and

take me somewhere nice
pick up your device

 slide to unlock
and

dial: revenge 

or just flat line out 

of time
out 

of welcome

out of place

running all over out of face

boring machines disturbs sleep

fade into the darkness fall in deep

e-meh

what were you looking for
for an e-fuck?
e-suck?
e-moti- CON
tron?
virtual virtuoso
so so
e-show
no
no go
back to la la land
while you
use your hand
and pretend it's my
puuurrrrrrfect
wet
slit
you slide
your dick into
in your mind
through email
e-sex
is more like an
e- FAIL
nothing is better than the real thing
face to face
flesh on flesh
my cum
and your cum
together mesh
in real life
and in real time
and in re-a-li-ty
no electronic
hidden bullshit
behind the screens
cum on my face
not my facebook

somebody that i used to know- z

i just heard that song tonight for the first time
i guess i'm not hip
and i guess it was meant for me to hear right now
while this is going on with you
i sat in the car
and listened to it 5 more times
and cried my eyes out
cause that's how i feel about you
and it's a hopeless feeling
now
with how you screwed me over
when i told you my feelings
you made me feel the way
i never wanted to feel again
like you were so far away from me
and you didn't even care
and that is a hard feeling to swallow
right now
it stays a lump in my throat
and the tears aren't stopping any time soon
cause it hurts so bad
that you would do
what you wouldn't want someone to do to you
and i feel the distance
and i feel it grow
sitting here letting it all come out
i'm as honest as anyone can be
more honest then you were with me
cause to think of you -
as somebody that i used to know
i won't turn around
i won't wait for you again