and the love that i feel is so far away Current mood: exhausted
i don't ever want to feel like this again. ugh.... i just don't know how to be a person i don't like the feel of my skin i don't like the sound of my voice or what comes out. it's not natural. it's not really me. in me there's so much love. but i don't love myself. i don't know how to love myself. i hate myself inside. and i'm slipping again... like before. i didn't learn a thing. i'm just so stupid... i feel so used. all that i can do is walk away right now. and stay away this time for good.