time on my side

it took some time to get over the sad part of breaking up.  now it's been a little while and i've had time to think about everything.  i've had time to go out and self destruct. i even ran into a few of your friends which was good and bad but helpful. one of your friends told me how you bring anything and everything and have been fucking like crazy. that part i could care less about cause we're not together anymore. what really hurt (but i knew deep down) is how you've been fucking the one person i trusted. she even talked to me like she gave a shit. people fuck up in relationships. it's the nature of them but you have never been faithful or good to anyone really. you wondered why i was get so mad at you --- it's because you never really acted like a boyfriend. we were together and you would just do things that made it so hard to like you as a person. i felt disrespected - lied to - unimportant and i always felt like i couldn't trust you. you are not someone i can trust. you cheat and you lie and you have demons far more dangerous than i think you realize and way too destructive for anyone to ever really be with you. you acted as though you were sooooo good and i was the one that treated you like shit. i loved you and you trashed my heart and my good and i have nothing good to keep from our "relationship" breaking up with you was the best decision i ever made. i just wish i never wasted time with you to begin with. what we had wasn't good. you are not made to be the monogamous type. you can't just be friends with anyone either. you can't help it but i feel really relieved that i don't have to deal with you anymore. yup... the end .