i'm a fuck up

you don't try
and that makes me feel lower than scum
you don't try or care like you once did...
i miss that desire in you
i miss the attention
i miss you wanting me.
i am not as cold
i am not as distant-
there's no reason to be that way
but you are
maybe because i've always been there
wanting you
giving you the attention
i've always been there when you have come and gone
and come back around again

you've always had me
you don't know what it's like to not have me
i know how little you try
how little patience you have if any
you hurt me too
and i've been there
--- i feel like a piece of shit with how you treat me
i'm a fuck up but
i'd rather spend my time somewhere else
bang bang baby
goodbye

moving on...

 

 

there won't be a next time... cause i got nothin' left anymore

you left this today
and i'm not going to stop you
i've tried all i can try
but i can't make you be more loving
or understanding right now.
right now you are not and when you are not
you forget who i am and
you forget that i mean something more to you
and that i deserve a little more now
i deserve patience -
i talk to you
i tell you how i feel
but you treat me as if i don't
and as if i'm careless and mean.
escaping is what you love to do
i've been bitten by you way too many times
and stuck through with you
you act as if i am just a bitch for no reason
you make it seem like you do nothing wrong
i've had enough
this time i'm okay with you leaving
i won't ask you back
i won't say sorry
you made that choice
it's for the better.
goodbye

you keep the devil between us

got fucked up
and passed out
that's the same excuse i hear
everyday that is what you did the night before
that is why you didn't the night before
that is why you weren't the night before
that is why you can skip out on
being there
being present
being a part of helping our relationship
instead of hurting it
like you're hurting me
-
what keeps me

i don't know